Beauty in the breakdown...

Still one of my fav songs, Let Go by Frou Frou

It's played at the end of Garden State

I came across this song at a time in my life where I felt like I had lost everything. Including the person I thought I was. I think I had it on single repeat for at least a month hehe poor flatmate must have wanted to poke things into her ears!
Looking back on that time now I know that it needed to happen. No matter how hard it was then and how much I was hurting I needed to be broken down to be renewed. I have always wanted to see it this way but it wasn't until this morning over coffee with a friend that I really started to. I've thought it, but never said it all out loud. Hadn't voiced my feelings about what happened to anyone. I felt lighter after it. Happier and more content at where I am now.

I've been sorting and putting things on TradeMe to sell today. Mostly the bits from our wedding that we want to get rid of...table runners, candle holders and pew bows.
It's been good :) just hope people want them!
I had my old mobility stuff picked up last week too. This time 8 years ago I was in and out of a wheelchair. I'm glad to say that I haven't needed one (Apart from post knee op) in 4 or 5 years. Makes me pretty happy.

I was planning on an early night but it's almost half 10 already. I forgot to get hold of the people I'm meant to be visiting tomorrow....CRAP!
Will have to txt first thing in the morn.

Night all.

PS first time adding a vid :)

Empathy

Just a short post before I head off to sleep.

I got a txt from my Husband tonight saying he had missed out on going to the MotoGP race today but that he'd been watching it live on TV. He said they had red flagged on the 2nd lap due to a crash and they were waiting to hear if Marco Simoncelli was ok after his crash.
While most people here in NZ were watching the Rugby World Cup final I had been trying to find the live feed of the race online but couldn't find anything. The reason I couldn't was because they were waiting to hear how Simoncelli was. Unfortunately he didn't make it.
After seeing all the footage that's all over the net already, I actually think this is a blessing. He fell hard, lost his helmet and was hit by 2 other riders. My heart goes out to them too. Neither Rossi nor Edwards could have known what was coming and Edwards ended up in the kitty litter himself.

MT called me after I let him know the news. We talked about how funny it is that we feel for people we don't know. Funny that just because we watch a person race on a bike for how ever many weekends a year it gives us the right to grieve.
Tonight I cried and prayed for a family I have never and will never meet, because they lost someone.
Some may say I'm foolish...actually many would but I don't care. I like that I feel empathy for others.It's part of who I am.
In that phone call it also made me even more sure that I really did marry the right Man for me. I could hear in his voice that he was upset too. There wouldn't be any tears at his end but he felt the same things I did towards the people effected. I had to smile at that.

NZ did win the RWC tonight and I am pleased. It would have looked a little silly if the hosting team failed lol
But along with the French, the racing world lost something tonight. A great racer who has left his mark on the world and in the memories of many.

I hope all effected find peace in time. xx

On the move

Right, so within a day or so of my last post we were told we are moving.
I knew marrying into the Military that we could lead some what of a transient life. This move how ever IS wanted unlike some of my other friends who are about ready to kill people at the mo due to there notice of a move.
We are moving down country, closer to some family and friends and closer to the next steps in our lives.
Where we are now, there is no hope in hell of buying the kind of house we would want. Too much money and not enough grass.
Both my MT and I grew up in rural areas so the thought of this is some what exciting.
Living right on a main road, right in the flight path has driven us both nuts over the past 2 years. I didn't realise how glad I am about moving until yesterday when I thought it would be nice to sit in the sun to drink my morning coffee. Problem was, my view was of road workers, trucks and the many cars that drove past. It was sunny, yes but loud so I ended up back inside after all.
Down the line where we are heading is much nicer. Not everyones cup of tea, but it's looking at suiting us just fine.
For the same price as a cruddy 2 bedroom shack up here we can get a 4 bedroom, nice large section without having to see the people next door. We have been looking at the market for almost a year now and it hasn't changed too much.
It almost seems like people are wanting to sell up their family homes and move into smaller more populated places (each to their own I guess) which is really good for us :)
The other thing this move is opening up for us is the plan for children.
At times I'm still so scared of this thought. ME a mother! My MT a father....not that we aren't old enough or wise enough (BAHAHAHAHAHA) but more that it's just such a change to how we live our lives now.
MT said to me not long before he left (Oh yeah, he's away till 4 days before our movers come in.....woooot NOT!) he said "don't worry too much about the distance from everyone, our kids will have wheels for feet" We tend to travel quite a bit. I'm worried in some way about the distance. 5 hours drive from our parents, brothers and sisters, 3 nieces, 2 nephews, a great niece and nephew...but again, we travel lots as it is so it shouldn't be too bad. And hey, people can visit us to because we will have a spare room finally woop woop!
I should go and have some lunch and clean some more.
It's kinda scary how clean the house manages to stay with just the one of us home :)

Byee